. . . the WILD ride . . .: October 2009

Oct 16, 2009

Alice in WonDeRLanD

I LOVE this crazy thing. It is trippy and hypnotizing. It loops so sometimes I listen to it for a long time...

Crazy but I love it.

http://www.yooouuutuuube.com/v/?rows=36&cols=36&id=pAwR6w2TgxY&startZoom=1

Oct 14, 2009

Calvin and hobbes on creativity

Calvin: You can't just turn on creativity like a faucet. You need to be in the right mood.

Hobbes: What mood is that?

Calvin: Last-minute panic.

Bill Watterson

Oct 13, 2009

A few weeks ago I experienced the worst week of my life, literally. I was suffering from severe anxiety, and I'm still not sure what brought it out. I have only been this anxious once, and it was this summer. This time was worse. Anxiety is a very scary feeling. I was also depressed, and had no appetite whatsoever. I lost more weight (I lost a lot of weight over the summer) and couldn't find any willpower. When I finally recovered and was able to eat normally I was so thankful. I sympathize with everyone who has severe anxiety. It's so scary.

During that week, I experienced some enlightenment. I am now in the process of recreating myself.

I am known to be an angry person sometimes, but I have realized that if you want love, you must give love. Give what you want, and it will come back to you. Anger breeds more anger. Anger and depression are both vortexes of doom. I want to be more loving, less angry, and even more understanding of people. I'm already a pretty understanding person, but it's not enough.

I am also working on being more social, since I am pretty reserved and introverted.

I want to keep up with this blog and my flikr account, and I hope to soon create my portfolio website (which hasn't been done yet because I'm so busy).

I'm going to try (I say try because of time constraints: schoolwork!) to go to the gym more often. I have a workout plan, and have done it but since I took a break from it I haven't gotten back into the routine.

The last and most fun thing is reinventing my style! I went shopping this weekend and bought a bunch of clothes that I wouldn't normally wear. I have opened my eyes to things other than jeans and tshirts! (See earlier post about leggings...) Dressing up is fun and I've gained confidence.

World, here I come!

This photo is one I took while in France

Oct 12, 2009

"Normal"

We do too much work nowadays.

Normal is getting dressed in clothes that you buy for work and driving through traffic in a car that you are still paying for - in order to get to the job you need to pay for the clothes and the car, and the house you leave vacant all day so you can afford to live in it.